As you may have heard, Becky and I will be moving to Tennessee on September 8th!Many of you have asked about this quick decision, so I have decided to write a blog about how it came to happen.A little over a month ago, Becky and I took a trip down to Franklin, TN (Nashville area) visit her parents.It was a great, relaxing vacation time besides the multiple dentist visits J.Among many fun things with Becky’s family, we were also able to hang out with some of our good friends that have previously moved to that area.One night, we drove over to Smyrna, TN and spent some quality time with our friends Jared and Katie.We were able to talk about life and enjoy getting caught up.Those of you who know us probably know that Becky and I have a few life ministries including our marriage, our child, and the band Never Say When.Therefore, we naturally got on the topic of Never Say When while talking to Jared, who majored in music business at BelmontUniversity and is working part-time at BMI.The conversation drifted to the fact that we know the band can provide a good, professional product, but we need a manager because we are terrible at the business side of things.Jared, possibly half-jokingly, said that he could manage the band.And the thoughts began.
I found myself bitten by the Nashville bug.For the first time in my life, I knew exactly what I wanted.I want to worship GOD and encourage and challenge others through music and be able to support my family doing it.Becky found great joy in the fact that I was getting passionately excited about something because she, without telling me, had been praying for GOD to light a fire under me.
Along with thoughts and dreams about music, Becky and I also had to think about reality.We had to somehow make some money in order to meet our budget every month.Along with paying rent in Macomb, IL and everything else that goes into a budget, December will bring the beginning of MANY LARGE payments for school loans.We needed something through which GOD could provide us with money.The summer session of children’s music classes was over, all of our music students stopped taking lessons, Becky was unable to keep working shifts at Café Aroma and still nurse Guy…Macomb stopped looking so promising.At that point, Becky and I decided it would be a good time to start touring full-time.So, why would we want to pay rent for a space to live in Macomb if we want to be musicians that travel a lot?Along with all this, the band, being our prime ministry, had been very inactive for the summer since we had a baby and the other members were working in their own niches.Therefore, we talked to the band members and told them we may be taking some duo gigs to help pay the bills.Although doors seemed to be closing in Macomb, other doors were opening in TN.We had found a wonderful man that could be the manager of Never Say When (Jared), meaning that Becky and I could actually make our musical, worshipful calling come true.We also have family there that could give us lots of support, help, and love.And, our Grandma Dorothy has agreed to let Becky and I stay in her vacant house for a while.Therefore, Becky and I don’t have to worry about making a large rent payment every month.Rather, we can focus on making Never Say When our primary, full-time ministry!
After much prayer and thought, I decided that it would be the best thing for my family to move to TN.We told the other members of the band and made sure they understood that even though the future of the band is uncertain, they are more than welcome to continue with us now as Never Say When.We are leaving those decisions up to them and GOD.While there are many challenges, emotions, uncertainties, and much hard work built into this decision, I finally know what GOD is calling me to do.There are things, and most importantly, people in Macomb that we will miss, but Becky and I need to take this chance to pursue what we believe to be GOD’s calling for our life.While we could live anywhere in the world and rely on part-time jobs to pay the bills while half-heartedly chasing after our musical career, there is no way we would ever be fulfilled.Devoting ourselves to music for the sake of the Lord is the only way I can be fulfilled in my current life.We would definitely appreciate any prayers that you would like to send our way!
Guylan is 2 months old today!Wow!!I just can’t believe how fast time just flies by.
Yesterday was a day full of cleaning and preparing to leave for the weekend to go visit Ma & Pa Holland.The way I most enjoy cleaning and getting stuff done around the house these days is putting Guylan into our Moby Wrap.There are so many reasons I just love having him in the wrap.I love having him close to me.With him in the wrap he knows where I am – right next to him.I also like that he is able to see everything I am doing.I feel like he is just a sponge, absorbing everything in his environment and when he can move around with me in the wrap I can tell him what I am doing and keep him mentally occupied.He also takes his best naps in the wrap.Well-rested babies eat well and well-fed babies sleep well and babies that sleep and eat well are happy and happy babies equal happy mommies.Get the picture.:) Wraps are just great.
While I was cleaning today Guy fell asleep in the wrap, like normal. Since he loves sleeping in the wrap, I secured his head to my chest with part of the wrap and continued on cleaning.I finished the kitchen where everything I was doing involved me standing (dishes, wiping down counters, etc.) and moved on to the living room.Now, in the living room there were a lot of things on the floor that needed to be picked up, so I had to bend down and grab them, stand back up and put it where ever it was supposed to go, then go back to grab the next thing.After bending down to pick up the first thing Guylan gave a grunt as I stood up.I looked down at him to make sure I was not hurting him and there he was…head rested against my chest, dead asleep.So I giggled at him and bent down to grab then next thing.He did it again, and again, and again.Man, he is just too cute.As I was listening to him grunt I was reminded of his first week of life.When Guy was a newborn every time we would shift him he would grunt just like today.I hadn’t realized that he stopped making that noise a while ago.It was such a sweet sound.I just can’t believe how much he has already changed.
I just love our little man so much.What a great blessing.I could just stare at him for hours in amazement.How remarkable our GOD is that he could take and egg and a sperm and turn it in to a human and that that human grew in my belly!!Wow!!I will forever stand in awe of HIS capabilities.
Becky and I decided to install a trailer hitch on our amazing Town and Country so Never Say When could be comfortable when we traveled on tour this summer. We ordered the hitch and it arrived on Wednesday of last week. If you know how much I know about cars and stuff, you would probably laugh if I said that Becky and I wanted to install it ourselves to save some money. I read the instructions and figured out what tools we needed. That evening I drove to Farm King and picked up a 3/8" drive socket set and a set of wrenches in case I needed them. I also picked up the ball mount for the hitch. Then I went to AutoZone and rented a 3/8" drive torque wrench on their Loan-a-Tool program that a friend had told me about. This way I could use the new sockets I just got on the torque wrench. I got home and figured out that the 3/8" drive torque wrench gives inch-pounds of torque and I needed foot-pounds of torque from a 1/2" drive torque wrench for this project. So Becky and I headed back out in a wicked storm and returned the socket set and got a 1/2" drive set then returned the wrench and got one with a 1/2" drive. Then Barry, who told me about the Loan-a-Tool program, allowed me to use his jack stands.
GOD thing #1: I got all the tools I needed without having to spend a lot of money on stuff that I would rarely use.
Becky and I had an open day today. I was very anxious and excited to get the hitch on! I went out and got the van up onto the jack stands as high as they would go. The van wasn't super stable, but I thought it was stable enough. The first thing in the instructions had me taking off a bumper bolt that required an 18mm socket. Though the set I bought didn't have an 18mm, I assumed a 17 or 19 would work well enough.....WRONG. Becky decided she wanted to go with me to get the new socket which meant getting the van down so we could take the baby in the car seat. I put the jack under the van and started lifting. Apparently I didn't get the jack straight on because it shifted the van and caused it to drift sideways. It bent the platform on both of the jack stands as they, along with the jack, got stuck under the van which was now back on its wheels. OOPS! I was able to get the broken jack and stands out, but I wasn't the happiest camper.
GOD thing #2: Becky decided to go with me to the store so the van "fell" when I was getting it down and no one was under it!
GOD thing #3: The van is not messed up! The jack and stands did not puncture or break any important things when they got stuck under the van.
So our trip to Farm King turned from a $6 trip to a $76 dollar trip. We got the 18mm socket, sturdy new jack stands, a new jack and a much happier Nathan.
GOD thing #4: GOD provided us with some savings so Becky and I didn't have to freak when we had to spend some unexpected money.
We got back to the apartment and I got to work again. I wanted to move quickly because it looked like a rain storm was coming. I got the van back up and started to remove bolts. I followed the directions which had me remove the brackets for the rear stabalizer bar. When we held the hitch up in position, I found that I was following the wrong set of directions (it came with 2 sets for differing vehicles). I quickly found that I didn't need to take off the stabalizer bar brackets and it should be easier than planned! I continued working and figured I would put the bar back on when I was done. I found that one of the nuts that was built into the frame was giving me a problem because it somehow got stripped or something. This made it hard to get the bolt in, but thankfully the torque wrench gave enough leverage to smash it in tightly (even to the correct amount of torque according to the directions).
GOD thing #5: The messed up nut ended up taking the really difficult bolt!
The most finicky part of the project was next. I had to feed a spacer and a bolt up into the enclosed frame through a hole so the bolt would come down through the spacer and through the hole so I could put a nut on the bolt outside the frame. I managed to get the spacer in but the bolt would not fit through the hole it was supposed to go through. I didn't know what to do since it was one of only three bolts on each side of the hitch. I had to have it and it didn't fit though the hole. On a whim I tried to put the bolt through another hole and it fit! And guess what? This hole would have been half-covered by the stabalizer bracket that I took off by mistake! If I wasn't following the wrong directions I probably would have given up because this bolt just didn't fit!
GOD thing #6: I followed the wrong directions and accidentally uncovered the hole that allowed me to get the bolt into the frame.
I put the stabalizer bar back on and double checked the torque on all the hitch bolts to make sure they were tight enough according to the directions. I was done as it was just beginning to sprinkle.
So, I have just recently become acquainted with 2 awesome products: baking soda and vinegar. I am just amazed by how many uses these two products have and how well they work! And the best part...they are completely natural! I could eat them and be just fine!! I can breath them in and they wont hurt my little growing baby. Awesome, right?! So, among the many uses for these two products -kitchen cleaner, getting rust off things, stain remover, degreaser, laundry detergent, etc - I have just discovered that vinegar + baking soda = an awesome drain declogger!!
Our drain in the shower has been super clogged for quite some time. Every time we shower the the tub fills about half way with water and leaves a gross film around the tub. Bummer. So, I decided to try and use my two new favorite products to clear out our drain. And IT WORKED!!
So, here is the procedure:
-What you will need: a 1/2 a cup of baking soda and 1/2 a cup of vinegar
-What to do: First pour (or shove) the 1/2 a cup of baking soda down the drain, then pour the 1/2 a cup of vinegar down the drain. Next enjoy the bubbling effect that occurs when you mix the two. Now, shove a drain stopper over the drain and leave the mixture in the drain for about a half hour. After the half hour, run your faucet as hot as it goes for about 2 minutes. Repeat this process if needed.
We had to repeat this process 3 times before ours was completely declogged, but it is working perfect now!! How exciting.
Hope someone out there finds this as exciting as I do! :)
Yesterday we received our birthing pool in the mail!!! How exciting!!! According to the directions we were required to fill the pool and test it out with in 48 hours of receiving it. So, last night was our birthing pool test run night!! So much fun. It was so easy and fast. The pool is sturdy and oh so comfortable. It was so easy for me to move around and shift my weight (which isn't such an easy thing to do these days). I am sooo excited to labor in it. Here are some picture of our test run.
9:42pm Here's Nathan clearing off the coffee table that must be moved to make space for the tub
Here are some of the extras the kit came with: a thermometer, a debris net, sanitation scrub, instructions, a floor tarp, and a pool liner (for easy clean-up)
9:50pm Nathan hooking up the 25 foot hose that came with the pool using the yellow y-valve that also came with it
Lucy inspecting the hose...it was good :)
Lucy helping Nathan put the tarp out...she is so helpful.
Nathan "modeling" the awesome bag that the pool came with
9:57pm Tarp ready, pool ready...time to inflate!
10:03pm Getting there...that black pump came with the pool. It is an amazing dual action pump. It fills up the pool with both the down and up pump...it went so fast!
We discovered this on the bottom of the pool. :) No diving? Bummer.
10:12pm All done inflating. Now, for the water.
10:41pm Pool is all filled up to a sweet 90 or so degrees and Mama is in it and lovin it!! :)
Nathan and I enjoying our sweet birthing pool. We watched a comedy show (Thou shalt Laugh) from the pool. So awesome. Yesterday was a very hot day and our apartment was super warm so the watching comedy from a pool was a perfect way to end the day!!
We ordered our tub from www.yourwaterbirth.com. It is the La Bassine model. It is going to be such a great pool to birth in!! SSSOOOOO excited!!
We can't wait to post pictures using this pool to bring Guylan into the world gently!! Only 4-10 more weeks.
There are some amazing stories in the Bible that don't get much "page time". With only a few sentences used to tell a radical story or give some very important advice. Things like this are so easy to just skim over and I sure have for many years, but during this season in my life God has been challenging me to really really read every word of his word and dig into the deeper meaning of things.
One of these stories is about a woman who is ill and receives radical healing from the Lord. A story I have just skimmed over many times because it is only four sentences long.
Matthew 9. 20-22 Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind Jesus and touched the hem of his garment. For she kept saying to herself, "If only I could touch his garment I will be restored to health." Jesus turned, and seeing her, he said, "Take heart, daughter, your faith has made you well." And in that moment the woman was restored to health.
Now, when reading this story in context of the book of Matthew it is so easy to just read quickly over it. It is sandwiched between many other miraculous healings and words of wisdom. In the past, I would just read these four sentences and think,"Cool...another healing..." and move on to the next one. But today when I read this story it stopped me in my tracks. Today I identified with this woman and was blown away by her reckless audacity. Here she is a bleeding woman, most likely rejected by the community, considered unclean. So, even being out in public must be a big deal. She climbs into a crowd full of those who reject her and toward Jesus, a very controversial man, just to pull on his clothes. Wow. If this were a scene in a well scripted movie we would all be biting our nails as we watch her put herself into a potentially embarrassing and maybe even dangerous situation. I mean, would you do this if you were her? I know if I were her I would be at home watching the crowd from my window thinking, "I should go, he will heal me, I know it....No, maybe he wont, he will just think I am crazy...wait, I have to go, I can't live like this any longer...but, will I even make it to him?" Can you imagine her mental battle before she took those first steps in his direction? Wow.
Just thinking of this story in this way changed it for me. But, more, what made this story stick out to me is its connection to me personally, today. I know a woman who is subject to bleeding. Not a woman of the past, put a woman I love and care deeply for. I know the woman in this story and have had many conversations with her of her pain and lack of comfort. I have listened to her tell me of the many medical efforts that have been make over a 20 year span to restore her health. She may not be reject by her community, for not many know she has had to deal with this issue for so long, but it has sure brought embarrassment more times than she would have liked. I have been able to watch her reach out to God recently and I am ready for Jesus to turn to this sweet woman and speak, "Take heart, daughter, your faith has made you well." That is my prayer.
What an amazing God we have that he is capable and desires to heal us of all our ailments.
Nathan and I have given our little boy the name Guylan because we like it. (I told the story of the creation of Guylan's name in a previous post.) So, I was having a conversation with one of our friends, Nick Self, just a few days ago and he encouraged me to look in to the meaning, origin and definitions of his name. So I did and found some very interesting things!! Here is the meaning of his name:
When I looked up "Guylan" I got nothing. There were only two websites who even acknowledged Guylan as a name at all. So, I decided to look up "Guy" since that is the name we started with. According to a few different sources Guy could mean a few different things. From a German origin it means, "wood." Not so exciting, I know. From Welsh it means, "lively." Now, this one has already proven to be true. I could feel Guylan dancing in my belly at 16 weeks!! We definitely have a very lively baby. In Old German Guy means "warrior." This one is pretty cool. I also really like that in French Guy means "guide." Very cool, huh.
I think my favorite part of the Guy name research was when I wondered across the definition of "guy" in the dictionary. Of course it could just mean "a young man", but it also means "An object to steady , guide, secure of embrace something with." How cool is that!! That was by far my favorite definition!! :)
I sure can't wait to watch our son, Guylan, grow and fulfill his purpose in this world. We love you little Guy.
We have taken some photos over the last two months and a video documenting my belly growth. Its so interesting to look back at every photo. I remember feeling SO BIG at for each one, but I just keep getting bigger. Hehe... So, here they are:
19 weeks along...
21 weeks along...
24 weeks along...
Still 24 weeks...
Here is a video from our last appointment with our AMAZING midwife, Brande. Nathan was able to catch Guylan's heartbeat on our camera. It is really quiet at first because Nathan's finger is blocking the mic. Give it a sec and Nathan moves his finger and you can here the 'woooosh wooosh woooosh" of Guy's healthy heart!! Best sound ever!!
So, here we are in Rushville, IL at "Peace of Earth." This is where Dale is doing his internship. Awesome place!! We decided to come to him this week for a band practice. It took us about 50 minutes to drive 31 miles. We aren't going to tell Dale we got a little lost. Oh well. :)
We are all just sitting and hanging out before we get to jamming. I realized that Nathan and I haven't written a blog in quite a long time!! So, here I am just writing to check in and give a little update about what has been going on since our last blog.
We have found out that we are going to be the parents of a little BOY!! We have already chosen a name: Guylan Micah Holland. We have had his name picked out for quite some time. Nathan has always liked the name Guy. I like it too, but it sounded like a very grown up name for a baby and I wanted something that we could shorten. So, Nathan told me to come up with something I liked to add to the name. So, I just started adding endings to Guy and Guylan was a perfect match. I was very excited to find out that when you look up Guylan on baby name websites they say it doesn't exist. So happy our son will have a unique name that is still beautiful and not way out there. We chose Micah for his middle name after Nathan's big brother. Nathan and I both admire and look up to him and look forward to him passing on all sort of wisdom to our baby boy. As a side note: If we have another boy in the future we plan on giving him Nathan's other and bigger brother's name as a middle name: Joshua. :) We feel so blessed that all of Guylan's uncles and aunts will be greatt sources of knowledge and wisdom. (Love you guys!)
We can't wait to hold you baby Guylan!! :)
Let's see what else has been going on:
-Well, we spent Christmas in Franklin, TN with the Cantlon/Davis side of the family. Always an enjoyable experience. :) -Spent New Years with the Holland side of the Family!! Also very enjoyable. Can't wait till Guylan and Lilah can play together. -Never Say When went on a 2 week winter tour through out the midwest to celebrate the release of our FRIST ALBUM!!! -Oh, yes...NEVER SAY WHEN RELEASED OUR FIRST ALBUM!!! Give us a call or e-mail if you want to buy a physical copy or check it out on itunes, cdbaby.com or just about any other place you can download music. -Nathan started his LAST semester of college
I am sure there are more exciting events to add to that list, but my brain is drawing blank.
Here are 2 pictures from our sonogram. Have fun trying to decipher them. :)
Here is "THE PICTURE". So sorry my sweet Guylan for posting your private parts...I promise I will take them off line by the time you start dating (when you are about 20 years old). :)
Here is Guylan's face. He is laying sideways. Look at those chubby cheeks!! :)
